Saturday, November 07, 2009

Sat, 07 Nov 2009 09:25:53 GMT

I make a lot of mistakes...and it's been hard to admit but what else can I do.

Move forward. Try not to make them again. Be humble. Be honest. Be wary.

why'd you even sing with me at all?

Fri, 06 Nov 2009 12:58:21 GMT

Thursday, October 08, 2009

Thu, 08 Oct 2009 11:13:24 GMT

The days feel a whole lot better but that's only because I can't feel anything.

Dogs

Thu, 24 Sep 2009 22:27:37 GMT

I really want a dog because they're much more loyal than people.

24

Tue, 22 Sep 2009 06:58:03 GMT

Pick up the pieces. Learn from your mistakes.

Grow up and blow away.

Wise Up p.2

Mon, 21 Sep 2009 04:32:13 GMT

the romantic in me is dead.

Allen,

Thu, 17 Sep 2009 05:06:32 GMT

don't let these disappointments keep you down.

The Lost Boys

Sun, 13 Sep 2009 09:12:04 GMT

I feel so much different now that I am back in Texas.

So this is what it's like when a lost boy leaves Neverland.

100 Days of Summer

Wed, 22 Jul 2009 16:05:08 GMT

Summer is 2/3 finished for me. I have about one month left here in Southern California.

While the first month was a dream and nothing short of amazement...the second month was a slow decline into uncertainty. When I first got here, 3 months seemed like a really long time...and I went full speed ahead acting like I'd never leave...but as the end drew nearer, the questions came back of where life can evolve when it's so temporary.

I think it's hard for people to imagine just how difficult it is to keep weaving in and out of people's lives. I didn't even realize it was going to be that hard...but it shows itself in small interactions. I just want something constant in my life, something I can hold onto while I go back and forth. My friends are one thing...and they're always a good reason but I wanted something more. I used to be against long distance relationships, but now I almost see that as a necessity for my situation. Seeing how this past year went...I think I'd be good at it.

I have no idea what this last month will hold for me...it can either be really great or just...mediocre. I know I should probably spend this month preparing myself to leave again...the terrible thing is that there are a lot less surprises to look forward to in the fall. But who knows...every 3 months I feel like has been a completely new and different chapter in my life.

I realized that for awhile now, my life feels like it's in constant movement. I wonder how much better my life and relationships could be if I could just stay still for once. If I could just stop and breathe, and let people breathe with me. Instead, I have this rush where it feels like each day is the last day of my life.

I have a feeling that when this is all over with...2 years from now...I will look back and see that I've grown a few lifetimes. Settling down is starting to seem like not such a bad idea after all. I just wish I didn't have to go through this at this time in my life. I am too young.

But that's life I guess.

Fix Me

Tue, 21 Jul 2009 04:59:22 GMT

I want to quit the dating scene.

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